Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in lykomgitssamm's LiveJournal:

Monday, April 24th, 2006
Monday April 24th, 2006 8:22pm	everything i havnt typed on here in a minute. but ummm..i have some new good friends. They are awsome, they are like my life (= and i have been baaaad. Like, bad by the cops and i am messing around with people alot lately, but not too bad. I have been talking to a lot of guys (= tryin to get over roger, and it seems to be working out pretty well. --EASTER-- =I GOT CAUGHT BY THE COPS )= i was out past curfew and now i am not aloud to hang out with andrea and brianna for a long time. umm..i am starting to get a little bit closer to chase, but alot closer to his friend.(= his name is billy and he goes to sharpsville hes pretty sweet, the first night i met him(at like 2 in the morning) i wooped his ass in wrestling. i was doing so good too. Umm... well theres really not much else to say because i have been grounded for what seams to be forever so i havnt really done much of anything
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Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
Tuesday March 14th, 2006 2:35pm	Welll... ok this weekend was so totally cool, other than my grandma died, i spent the WHOLE FREAKIN weekend with brianna, which was cool. But...ok i knew it was going to sort of a drag because all she talks about is lamont, which i understand cause that was how i was with roger, who i am now over. Well obviously you can tell by his name that hes black, which is cool atleast shes happy but i never really cared about dating the opposite color, nothings wrong but i always was like, "i aint goin to do that" well this weekend def. changed that. Me and Brianna ended up coming to my house for a little bit and she called lamont, well lamont was like, "how old is your friend?" and brianna said "15 y" and he was like, let her talk to me cousin, and i was like.."NO" well i ended up talking to him. Later that day we ended up walkin around town with them, lets just say, that for most of the time, all we did was like, well nothing, we didnt even really talk to eachother, we get like a block or two from my house and he pushed me so i pushed him back and he was like if you push me again i am going smack your ass..so i stopped, and well he was right infront of me and i just had to push him, so he ended up smackin my butt...well he ended up huggin me and i was kinda shocked but i hugged him back, and then we held eachother the whole way home, and then i gave him my number, ha, and we ended going back to briannas later that night, and they came over till like midnight.. and yes yes yes...we kissed, and danced together and had fun, it was great, lol...then sunday came and we all hung out again, so..yea when i always told myself that i wasnt ever going to date a black person, its kinda changed now.. well idk if were dating, i dont think we are, i think we are just friends haha..idk..but he called me last night and we talked for like an hour...hes pretty cool, i hope i can get to know him a little more...so yea thats how my weekend went, and other than that ive been doing pretty good....<3 ~angel eyes~ Current Mood: cold
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Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
Wednesday March 8th, 2006 7:18pm	WELLLL... Well i havnt been on here much, i havnt really done anything much, my life is getting worse and worse as the day goes by, since me and danielle arent friends anymore...i have nobody to talk to. and then i am going to be moving with my dad sometime..because i cant stand everything that goes on here now. and it seams as if nobody cares, so i let myself go, and i look like crap nowadays. But... I have a new good friend, her name is Brianna Getsie.. shes a total loser, haha, im j/k, she is not only my friend, but my girlfriend, haha, im jk about that too..umm...this weekend we are hanging out...i cant wait..its gonna be fuuunnnn...umm...idk what else to put on here....well i think im gonna put up some of my poems that ive wrote.. Ill love you I close my eyes and all i see is you. All i hear is you, your the voice inside my head telling me everything is going to be alright. You said no one could come between us, we'd always stick by strong. I'm loosing my mind now i'm not with you. Do you miss me? Does your heart long for me? Because i need you, i still do, after all this distance and all our problems. I need you, i long to be with you day and night. This is all a useless dream, you'll never come back, you're gone, you left my world but not my heart. I promised you always and forever. Always and forever I'll love you. Without You Without you im not OK and without you i lost my way my hearts is stuck in second place without you i dont know what i am goin to do without you you moved on to anouther girl and i dont know what i am gonna do i still love you and i dont know how or what im going to do tell me what to do before i cry; i pain you hurt me, you told me you would never leave me but you left me and i am going to try to make it up to you. maybe i will find osmeone new no one really knows. Cry Tears rolling down my face as it rolls down to my mouth i can taste its salyt and filled wiith sorrow inside im just an empty shell thats hollow I keep trying to wipe the tears away but on my face it stays it feels like its teasing me pouring down to make me see That i cry because of you because of what you put me through the tears wont go away they're a part of me because i cry everyday SOmetimes i cry from deep inside so no one can see the pain i hide its only you can that can take away these tears because you are the one that make them apear. I would cry you a river if it takes you to me i would cry you an ocean: to show how dep my love can be i fell like i am a fountain of tears that can flow many years So, wont you put an end to this? that is my one true wish with one single touch i would stop crying so much. Current Mood: depressed
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Saturday, February 25th, 2006
Saturday February 25th, 2006 8:59pm	today could have been better Today was ok, i stayed at my grandmas last night and it wasnt that bad, her bed is weird, and hurt my back sooo bad, and my back is already bad as it is, but it made my back worse, and it sucked, so today i have been putting icy hott on my back and ice packs, and heating pads, i cant figure out if my back feals better with cold or hot stuff on it, sometiems it feels as if my back is split into two or something. Then my sister calls and is like, "im over to type my stuff up and then going to dads for dinner you wanna come?" and of course i say yes because my dad is going through a hard time, and i dont talk to him that often anymore. so we go to my dads house for dinner, and of course he does what he does evertime i see him, make fun of me, in a nice way i guess..its not like, oh sam your fat, or anything, but him and my uncle roger always say, "samitty sam, shes a ham, she likes spam," and goes on forever, and it gets soo annoying, and then me and my sister got into a fist fight, we were playing around, but my dad was like, "damn...sam can fight" it was funny, and we had a really good dinner. for somereason i keep getting more down on myself, each and every day. I have a secret that i am hiding from alot of my family and the couple of friends that i have, sometimes i want to tell them about it, but i am so scared, and so embarassed about it. My close friends knows, and so does my friend mike. Current Mood: depressed
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Friday, February 24th, 2006
Friday February 24th, 2006 4:50pm	Just an update... well i havent been home much the last couple of days so i havnt really updated anything so i will just update from here Friday..Today. Well..i attempted to go to school this morning, got up and put up my away message on aim saying i was at school...and well didnt go, i couldnt, there was no way....i was in sooo much pain. Thursday: i came home, idk what time but i hated being home, it was loud, and im was in pain, and ugh..it juse could have been better than that. after awhile i sat at my computer, which wasnt to comfy, and talked to my friend, who is the only person that knows what went on..and talked to him about the whole thing, which wasnt that bad, but emotional..but made me feel alot better being home, just because i got to talk to him (: and then i ended up going to the dc. which sucked, and then therapy..which was sooo painful..and then came home and went to bed...lots of fun Wednesday: wasnt home Tuesday: as i said, i wasnt home Monday: was ok, mom came in for a lil and then i got grounded... which kinda sucked and kinda didnt, it sucked cause my internet was shut off, but then mom comes in(cause i dont live with my mom) and i asked her, mom can i have your phone, im grounded but i want your phone so i can text ppl.. and guess what, she let me have it, so then i had the phone all day, and being grounded wasnt that well then i had to take my cousins, (8 and 3) and my litle brother (9) down to musser playground, and it was sooo cold. Well later that night i was going to go to my aunts, and i got into a bad car accident, which i dont want to talk about...but needless to say i wasnt home till thursday. Current Mood: exhausted
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Sunday, February 19th, 2006
Sunday February 19th, 2006 9:13pm	A good Poem i wrote..well, idk if its good..ppl say it is You meant alot to me more than i thought then everything happend, and your gone...and cant come back. You always made me feel like i was special always told me that i was pretty and always told me to stay positive. Now what do i do? your not here to tell me that your no where areound. We never talk nemore... It hurts, especially when you were the one there you were the one who helped me to stop crying now i am crying because of you and i have no one to help me stop so what do i do? tell me what to do, my lifes messed up and nobodys there to talk to me about it nobodys here to make me feel as good nowhere near as good as you made me feel Current Mood: high
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Sunday February 19th, 2006 3:46am	I cant beleive it ok today went sooo much better. Me and nick started talking, and then me and nicks ex started talking. Shes cool i guess, a little over protective of nick, but thats ok, i guess. as long as she doesnt take him from me, ha. The outstide def. tricked me, i got ready to go outside and run, got into my joggin pants and a sweatshirt, went out side, and said, "what the fuck,? what happend to the nice weather?" dude it was like 2 degrees ouside so i came back in and sat my fat ass on the freakin chair,right infront of my computer screen. At like 3 cassie asked me if me and nick wanted to go to the movies, i said sure, i called nickand was like, wait i cant go, where am i gonna get the money from and nick was like, thats no problem, ill pay for you.. aww how sweet well then its like 630, and i call nick, "idk if i can go, i dont have a ride," oh, well guess what, neither do i..lol. So i couldnt go. Then Cassie was going to give us a ride, but asked if i could get us what ever ride she didnt get...and of course i call my dad, and he was being an ass today, so he wouldnt take us..cause he was at the bar. So i ended up stayin home. I fell asleep for a little bit and here people screaming, so i go upstairs, and what do i see in my freakin kitchen, a stupid poker tournament. Ugh..i hate poker.. especially cause i dont know how to play, well i look at the table, and i know a little,and the cards that were delt were, J, J, J, J, and a 10 of spades.. lol, that would have been good.. My aunt won it and so did sherry, they split the pot, it was pretty cool. Then i come down stairs to my room and i talked to nick for a lil and then he invited me to a group chat with him and some of his friends, they are soo awsome..lol, and one of the girls that were in there was stacy (his ex)...idk something just makes me cringe about her. ha. Then while im talkin my friend got on. I love talkin to him, hes like the most awsome person ever, he makes me feel wanted, lol. We talked for a little bit, he said that his house was holding a poker tourney too..lol, what a cawinky dink...so that was pretty cool, then he said he had to go cause he was going to a party..lol i told him, "you better not find no girl, cause im your girlfriend.." he didnt say anything, lol, but he knew i was j/k cause were close like that.But after that i went upstairs and chilled with my cousin in her room, we watched LIFETIME.. ugh i <3 lifetime, its awsome. After watching lifetime from like 12-4 am i decided i was going to go to bed. Well i layed down and was like, wait i gotta update this thing..so...yea im going to bed now. love you all...(: Current Mood: sleepy
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Saturday, February 18th, 2006
Saturday February 18th, 2006 1:46am	This is so fuckin funny..its a video http://www.myspacer.net/previewvid.php?vid=485 Current Mood: bored
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Friday, February 17th, 2006
Friday February 17th, 2006 7:53pm	Better Today went better, although there were some downs to it. Um, i miss talking to my boyfriend every day. but other than that, i got into an argument with one of my ex boyfriends, and fucked up the whole friendship. I got to talk to an old friend it was awsome, ha, all because of a simple text message, he helped me get through a problem that was going on in my life, as he always has but it was cool. we talked for some time about my problems and kinda moved away from that. he told me that he still cared for me and whished he could fix all my problems, which made my day. as you can tell me and him were really close. it was awsome, i wanted to tell him how i felt back but i dont know how to. i dont want to end up saying the wrong thing, as i always do for some reason. ummm i slept pretty much all day for some reason, that seams to be like my hobby now. but other than that i really didnt do much of anything today, ill get back at this thing tomorrow oh yea i am starting to learn how to do this, somewhat.ha. all thanks to cassie. (: i love ya cassie Current Mood: aggravated
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Thursday, February 16th, 2006
Thursday February 16th, 2006 4:30pm	The worst day ever Today was horrible. I woke up and fealt like crap. And then i went to school, that could not have went any worse, first and second period is biology, which sucks in the first place, buti went to the nurse..and b4 i even got there i was sick..ugh. And then i come home around like 11 and slept till about 3. Later that night i was having really bad freakin chest/rib p ains...they hurt, and then i had to help my friend jesse get through a relationship problem, him and his girl were fighting...and jesse is like my bestest friend ever, so i had to help him through it. and then i open up an email around like 11 and my boyfriend breaks up with me...nothing else could have went wrong today. Current Mood: crushed
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Thursday February 16th, 2006 12:27pm	HA..lost Well, i just got this thingy, and now i am like confused as fuck, ha. I have no idea what i am doing, so i amm just going to put up here what id like..lol.. HOW THE FUCK YOU FIX YOUR PAGE UP? ITS LAME..HAH. um...what else, oh can you send ppl emails? lol THE ONLY REASON WHY I DID THIS IS CAUSE OF CASSIE, YOU BETTER FEAL LUCKY GIRL, myspace is like soo way better. um, well..idk, email me some stuff so i know what to do.ha ~sami~ Current Mood: Fuckin sick as hell
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